Guilt Manipulators

by Lynn A. Thomas
SoulPoweredLife.com

Guilt is such a cruel weapon.

I had someone knock on my door and ask me to do something.  I hemmed and hawed… I really did not have the time to do it.  She persisted, pushing the right buttons and I relented, “Okay.”

The day of the task, I awoke with a heavy foreboding.  I did not want to meet with her that afternoon. I had already made plans for my day, and I felt like I had undervalued my own time by allowing her to manipulate me.  I’m learning, but I still have a hard time saying “No.”

I wrote about the conflict in my morning journal. I just let the words fly about how I felt her pressuring me, how I felt like such a wimp for not saying no, how my energy now felt off.  I was not feeling happy or good about my day.

If you read or  listen to Abraham-Hicks, you know what I mean.  Holding on to feeling good so that we float downstream to our good. I wasn’t feeling too cheery as I wrote in my journal.  I now faced the task of deciding — meet with her even though I did not want to take the time to do so… or phone her and tell her that I wouldn’t be able to make it.

Either way — her simple knocking at my door and my inability to go with my gut reaction and say no had created drama – and I loathe drama in my life.

But the most interesting thing, as I wrote about this in my journal in my detached sort of way, was what was revealed to me.  I put the pen down and read what came from it.

The errand she had asked me to do with her – I wrote – was a guise of another issue.  She was up to something and she planned to broadside me with it while we were on the seemingly innocent errand.

While reading back what I had written, my gut told me it was true.

My intuition did not reveal to me what her plans were — but it was clearly warning me to steer clear.

“Intuition is a spiritual faculty and does not explain, but simply points the way.” ~ Florence Scovel Shinn

I put down the journal, picked up the phone and dialed her number.  I told her that I could not meet with her today.

She is a woman used to getting her way.  She was quiet a moment, then pulled out her bag of guilt, but I refused to nibble on it.

I have a nose for guilt – having developed a keen awareness of when it’s being wielded to manipulate me. I can smell its stank and when I am awake enough to to be aware of what is happening – I can defuse it before its used against me.

As I put down the phone, I felt “relief” – which to me is a signal that  I had “dropped the oars” and that it was good that I didn’t take her bait.

I felt my mood shift — I was floating downstream again. This was going to be a great day afterall – I could feel it!

You too can use intuitive journaling to help you see things more clearly or to help you make decisions.

In a quandary? Write about it.  Write it out.  Get clear and get in touch with your intuition.  Your gut will confirm when it’s on target.